Sky Blue and Black

From the instant that I looked into your eyes
I felt a sense of completion
.. the culmination of all my hopes and dreams
A surreal moment that can never be captured
not in words
not in a photograph
.. just barely in a memory

In that moment, my thoughts and dreams – my fantasies, spoke only your language
.. the dialects of a thousand tongues converged into one

I wanted to fall to my knees before you
And immerse myself into your being in complete surrender
I wanted to melt with you.. and in you
..and become, with you, all that you would be..
.. all that you could become.

Yet I had to keep my distance
and I had to keep my silence

But how can one experience such beauty of existence..
and not be able to touch it?
How can a being experience such joy.. such release..
and not be permitted  to become one with it?
I was being asked not to breathe
.. when it is air that sustains me
Asked not to drink
.. when my thirst begs for quenching
Like a drifter lost at sea
.. marking the passage of time by the rings within my heart

In disappointed agony, I gazed again into the depth of your eyes as
they reflected the moon..
And in that instant of time
I received clarity in my contemplation..
..  in your eyes I saw immortality.

I was then at peace when reminded of the promise of eternal souls
that fly into the night
and experience the joy of everlasting bliss.

The night enveloped us into its comforting solace
A dark and velvety, soothing embrace
Everything and everyone around us became a distant murmur..
.. a vague silhouette.

As the minutes passed unnoticed..
..turning into hours.
They could have turned into days..
.. time had no meaning.
All I saw was you.

Why love if losing hurts so much?..

… because to Love is absolute, to lose is conditional.

I love this man..

.. with all my heart and soul. When I look into his eyes, I see forever.
The quiet intensity sets me ablaze yet brings me peace simultaneously.

I love him for who he is.. for who I am with him
I miss him every moment he is away..

He is my past, for I knew him then
He is my present, for I know him now
He is my future.. for I will know him eternally

Because of him,
   I now know love
   I now know life

He is my reflection.. my very being
He is a part of me that I knew was missing yet didn’t know where to look
And then he found me.
I knew that I had been searching for him all my life

I look into his eyes and I say:
“I have waited all my life to fall in love with you“
He gently looks back into mine, and softly whispers:
“I’ve waited all my life to find you because I knew I was in love with
you this whole time.“

As I look above me into the angry sky

And I hear the dark rage of thunder

Bolts of lightning pierce the heavens

And vicious winds blow the leaves asunder

I am frightened by fierce clouds attacking each another

It feels as if I am right there in their midst

They boil with a vengeance I cannot comprehend

Leaving my body immobile – wanton – transfixed

I turn to God and I pray for shelter

From the fury I alone cannot possibly escape

Because I’ve tried to run and I’ve tried to hide

But all I saw was Fear in its ominous shape

Then I close my eyes for I want to see no more

And I run inside, seeking refuge and protection

Yet I still hear the howling wind outside my window

And I ask myself.. Is this God’s way of manifesting rejection?

Again.. the thunder explodes and pierces the night

Violent flashes reveal haunting silhouettes in the dark

Eeriness seeps in through my window pane

Reminding me that I am alone.. once again..

Take me to a place down yonder

Where there are endless fields

And yellow daffodils

Where butterflies play

And mantises pray

Where the sun dares shine

Despite the deliberately blind

Take me to a place where I can wander

Aimlessly

Where there is no limit

To the time of day

And one needs not worry

What next to say

Extend your hand and lead me

And with your knowledge feed me

For wisdom knows no bounds

Where only nature surrounds

Enliven my spirit, enrich my soul

Encompass my life as one big whole

Take me where no being has gone before

Take me where there is always an open door

Take me to the other side of the rainbow

Then set me free to go

Where everything is as it first will seem

Where one may dream the impossible dream

Take me to a place down yonder

Where solitude is not labeled squander

Where the meadows are green

And the air is clean

Where joy knows no barrier

And man knows no fear

Where the water is crystal clear

Where love overflows

And the wind softly blows

Where a little blue jay will land on my arm

And when I move to touch it

Will not fly away with alarm

Where sadness is never felt

And only tears of happiness are shed

Where no one has heard of a broken heart

Where there is no need for a brand new start

Take me to a place down yonder

A place you know only too well

And when you take me there.. leave me

Where nature will never deceive me

Every moment captured and preserved  in memory..

..  waiting to be recalled and re-lived.

Our fingers intertwined and our souls re-joined

Our hearts spanned distance and time

Reminders of encounters in lives long before..

When we were in the presence of the divine.

I thought of days of sadness

… of endless, sleepless nights

Of futile attempts at climbing

Then falling from towering heights

With his gentle strength, he held me

And I closed my eyes, and wept.. and wept

As walls of resistance came crumbling down

And in serene tranquility, I slept.. and slept.